In yoga, we are taught to practice staying. Staying with the breath, staying with the pose that might be uncomfortable or challenging, staying with the practice day in and day out. About a year ago, I started to question this notion. I was in a bad place in my life – I was miserable at my job, upset about my living situation, broke and stressed about how I would ever pay off my student loans, and basically questioning my self-worth around every corner. I started to realize that my daily practice on the mat wasn’t necessarily translating to my life outside of the yoga studio. While I fully believed in the importance of staying with your struggles and breathing through the challenges, I was at a point in my life where change was necessary. Instead of staying, I needed to run.
Looking back now, I see that it’s okay to believe in many different truths. It’s okay to think you need to stay through the tough times, and at the same time, it’s okay to also think you need to run away. It’s okay to believe in opposites, it’s okay to trust in different directions. Because at the end of the day, you’ve gotta do what you need to do NOW, in this moment. You’ve gotta do what feel rights to you. You’ve gotta listen to the voice in your head and your heart that tells you which way to go, instead of the people around you who tell you how it ought to be. And that will change. What you need to do at one point in your life is going to be drastically different from what you need 5 years or 25 years later.
So although then I needed to run, now, I need to practice staying. I need to settle in to this life, and wake up each day ready to give love and light and energy to those around me. I need to focus on my goals and my growth within the foundation I’ve built for myself. There’s a time for running, and there’s a time for growing where you are planted.
Here’s to growth, in its many forms.